the consistent act of not giving a f*ck
you feel the awkwardness, but you don’t let it marinate. you catch yourself over explaining your actions unnecessarily, then stop. you feel the need to justify an action that has really not derailed you from your value system, or changed its true effect on those it affects the most, then don’t. if you already started the justification, already did the rambling that’s made you feel awkward, don’t succumb to the feeling, release it.
live your life on your own terms. (re)define things in ways that resonate with you. language is an extension of consciousness, your consciousness, so reprogram it to meet your needs.
all your parental figures will be dead sooner than later, most likely before you, that’s if they’re not already gone, so what does it matter? do things you can live with fifty years from now and be content with. follow feelings that lead you to a better version of yourself, not a sulky version, not a constantly dissatisfied version, not a version that keeps trying to prove their worth to who?
you are already worthy now. you deserve to be loved right, now. you are valuable now. the observer that thinks the caterpillar is a different being from the butterfly is blind. they can see with their physical eyes but have no sense of sight with their intuition or the unseen.
if you want to be seen, see yourself first. the caterpillar knows it’s a butterfly, it’s the observers that think otherwise. but the opinions of the observers are completely irrelevant to its growth, its evolution, its transformation.
block out the noise. yes it takes effort but do it, and you will learn to get it done. cultivate the consistent action of not giving a f*ck on your own terms. this is how to be truly free all the time.
