I LOST IT

I lost my desire

for travel 

to make new friends

of being understood

So every other year

i ask my mother

though she is no longer here

why i have to close my legs while sitting

listen to elders who speak nonsense

relearn all the languages i forgot

Why i have to be christian

or muslim

or dead first

to be able to dream of heaven after my death

when i have already experienced several heavens

even before my birth.